Because it's not like I'm in mortal danger or anything.
No, I just have an overly obsessive cannibal after me. And a vengeful eldritch abomination who hasn't quite decided whether to break me emotionally physically or mentally. And a reporter who has episodes of homicidal rage.
Do you know what my life needs right now? Another tagalong.
Her name is Maggot. Or that's what people call her. I don't suppose that's her legal name. She is a proxy, because I hadn't reached enough of a suicidal threshold yet.
Still, she's a child. I'm not going to just leave a child sleeping in the streets.
But that's my problem isn't it? If I had just killed Ryan, or Jess, or anyone who actually mattered rather than the faceless parade of victims that I did murder, I wouldn't be in this mess.
Hell, if it wasn't for this sentimental side of me my husband might still be alive.
I don't usually go for might have beens, but this is something to think about. Perhaps my problem isn't that I was a monster, but that I wasn't enough of one.
Just some food for thought.
You're travelling with that thing? So you're working with fuckface now? Were you not enough of a terrible fucking person already? Had you not made enough terrible fucking decisions?
ReplyDeleteI know right? I've lost what was left of my mind. But no, I am not working with him. He was going to send her anyway. So it was keep her here, or out in harm's way.
DeleteHarm's way would have been a better place to leave the backstabbing little cunt.
DeleteLife is hard enough for children without me going out of my way to hurt them. I frankly don't care what she's done. She's got time for it to bite her in the ass later.
DeleteJust don't turn your back on that thing.
DeleteIs it a girl...? I took it as an assumption over the phone but I've a growing concern you might have checked.
ReplyDeleteShe's been here an hour and she's like five. Of course I haven't checked.
DeleteWhat asshole kicked a five year old out on the streets in the first place?
ReplyDeleteHonestly? Yeah, you're in a mess, but at least you're keeping your word. That's more than a lot of us can say. People call you stubborn, but stubborn is not always a bad thing.
I have been told by Em that Maggot is actually closer to ten than five. Which makes sense, I suppose. But I am not great with ages of children. They are small and not adults and beyond that I find it difficult to keep track.
DeleteAnd lots of ten year olds end up on the street. It seems like that's the age everything happens. I was taken at ten, Em wasn't much younger when she lost her parents, and now we have Maggot. Ten is a sucky age.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prKRwZ2EOXI
ReplyDeleteJust my luck. The only other Kesha fan on the blogs, and they're a cannibal. I like her song Cannibal. I bet you do too. I bet it has more meaning to you.
DeleteI like Kesha too. But not when she's playing it. That's always a bad sign
DeleteYou do seem to love taking in strays. At least Em has someone her own age to interact with for once.
ReplyDelete~
light bringer you risk your life now but i have to talk to you
ReplyDelete