Monday, January 19, 2015

It's been a while

And too much has happened to include in one post.

I am on my own again, for the moment. Em is safe. Being cared for by people she trusts. Ryan is with them. I do plan on returning, but there are some issues I have to figure out first.

I shall tell you all what has happened. But spending more than an hour at a time stationary in a place with public wifi can be dangerous. So this will be spread over more than one post. I do not know what is in store for me right now. So when these come out is not something I can say. But I will do my best.

I figure the best place to start is Em.

Em is stable, and she's adjusting to life in a wheelchair very well. Physically at least. Emotionally, she is beginning to go down a road that is very familiar to me. One I don't want her to go down.

There are few things more dangerous than someone who feels helpless. They will do almost anything to get their power back.

I've been confiscating her guns, talking to her, doing what I can. But... I'm kind of shitty at this. And I don't know how to help her.

It's difficult. Watching her light drain. Protecting it is supposed to be my job.

I'm shitty at a lot of things.


  1. You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine~

    1. And this is why we're dating.

    2. Here I thought you just had a thing for pale people.

  2. This can only end in tears, you know. Heheheheh. This whole redemption thing you've got going on. It makes me sick to my stomach. You can't fight who you really are. Just a pawn of your own nature and desires. Kind of also getting the idea that you are afraid to be alone. That why you have not put a quick and painless bullet through that little brat's brain? It would be the merciful thing, you know?

  3. Well, at least she's still alive. That's something to be proud of. You saved someone you care about.