Sunday, February 16, 2014

I have temper issues

I've been much better lately. I've been trying for Elizabeth, really. But sometimes things happen.

And today, what has happened is that a lovely commenter by the name of Artsyom came onto to my blog, threatened my granddaughter, threatened someone I'm fairly fond of, and attempted to prove just how much cooler he was than me. Which naturally hit me in my ego.

I've missed my ego. I haven't really had it since my husband died.  It was a strange way to get it back, I suppose. But that is life sometimes.

I haven't lied on this blog. In fact I've been so transparent I'm surprised that everyone who reads this hasn't figured it out. But the longer it goes on, the more it feels like a deception. The more I realize I'm hiding from myself.

I admit, I like having people support me for once. It was a good run. But I could change every single aspect of myself, and I would still be me. So I need to stop running from it.

My name is David Banks.

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  1. If anyone has a problem with it that was supportive before, they're hypocritical jerks. My grandpa is trying really hard to be a good man.

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    1. Also, he has temper issues but he would NEVER hurt me or anyone else he cared about just because he was mad and wanted to teach us a lesson. Unlike a certain commenter...

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    2. Oh, 'I'm' out of the bag. Fun times.

      You've always been a thing of Ego haven't you. Proxies wear masks. Proxies take new names. Proxies do everything they can to hide from what they are and shell off blame to Father.

      'The Monster made me do it.'

      But not you. Not David Banks. Not the blood thirsty old beast. He had to broadcast to the world that every kill was his and that his choices were his own.

      You know you can't be feared and convince everyone that you've changed right?

      You can't play the cuddly puppy as you bear your teeth. Something has to give.

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    3. In nature, the most fearsome and ferocious creatures aren't the bloodthirsty man eaters, but those defending their children/pack/etc. Food for thought.

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  2. I didn't threaten your granddaughter, just her family. Christ, I have standards.

    Glad I brought you out of your rut Mr Banks, but as I've stated before, I'm not fond of David Banks, nor am I fond of Azrael, sooo... I guess that's a double dose of my hatred. An overdose, really.

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    1. sannasobservatory.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/an-old-enemy.html

      ^ Wow, such standards.

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    2. Yeah. You went there with the intention of killing me and I ONLY beat you. I better get some real good shit on Fathers Day.

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    3. Because YOU were killing INNOCENTS BY THE MERRY FUCKING DOZEN just because I wouldn't talk to you because you fucking abandoned me a second time!!!

      Not my fault I was born, Artsyom. Maybe when you met Mam you should have kept your dick up your own ass, where it usually is.

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    4. I never abandoned you this first time. You were taken. Don't, you, EVER, fucking even imply I abandoned you back then.

      And answer your fucking phone, girl. Right now. Putting it on silent isn't going to make it all go away.

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    5. Possessive much? Sounds like you need to leave her alone and give her some space.

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    6. Would you let your seventeen year old wander around Russia with no shelter?

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    7. buy her a house?

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    8. Would you let Sanna own a house?

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    9. I'd let her rent one. Honestly some non death related responsibility would do her some good.

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    10. ...Would you let her run around in someone else's house?

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    11. I think I just said that. She's a seventeen year old girl, not the Tasmanian devil.

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    12. A suicidal, homicidal seventeen year old girl.

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    13. Just as long as she doesn't dent the walls.

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    14. Stick your head down the shitter.

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    15. Seriously. Give the girl some space. You cant expect her to answer the phone or respect you if you don't.

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    16. Wow, you folks sure love to spread your chatter all across the blogosphere.

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  3. Banks. That's a name I haven't heard for a while. It doesn't matter to me, and I'm sure Carter wouldn't have cared. You're trying to be a better person now, and that's all that counts.

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  4. Oh. Wow. David Banks, huh? Kinda puts this whole blog into another damn perspective, really. Never would have figured you of all people would go straight. Maybe miracles are real and fairy-tales really do come true!

    Nah. Oh well. Good luck.

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