Sunday, March 2, 2014

This feels better

I've never been one for hiding, to be honest. Deception is something that has never sat well with me. But I supposed that if I really was going to live a new life, I was going to need a new name. So I went as Azrael, and David became something of a shameful secret. Which is odd, to be honest. I'm not one for shame. It's a tool used to keep people in line.

And as such, there's a bit of a relief for finally mentioning who I am, what I've done. Which is quite a lot for those who do not instantly recognize my name. I'll probably go into it eventually.

I did think there would be more of a reaction, though. I was pretty well hated, for good reason. I have killed and raped and tortured myself quite a few enemies. And yet the whole situation was... pretty accepting. I don't know if that's because you all are charitable or idiotic.


Or maybe the world's just gotten so dark nowadays that it doesn't matter. Those who survive have done terrible things, and perhaps absolving me absolves themselves. I don't know if it works quite that way, but I think this is something we need to work on.

Let's leave the darkness for the bad guys, all right?

One of the most diabolical weapons in the world is the illusion that there is no choice.

There's always a choice. I think we should start making some.

18 comments:

  1. "Nowadays"?

    The world is the same shade it's always been. Nothing wired into the human mindset has changed. All that changes is the format. In Roman times you watched gladiators fight to the death. In the Middle Ages you could relish the violence in the Bible or go see a local hanging. Nowadays we got movies and games. But the principle is the same.

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    1. I'm not talking about the human condition. I'm talking about runners. I've been here since the beginning, seen them form and change and break and reform. I remember a time where people held on to their sanity as well as their life. A time where people valued kindness and dignity. Now it seems like everyone wants to be a psychopath.

      Honestly Tyomic, you seem to be the only one who's even trying. And you try so badly no one else wants to even touch it.

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    2. Rather than treating everyone as a hive mind, maybe you should look at individuals.

      To do something, you have to be shown it. People who have never been shown mercy will not know how to be merciful.

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  2. We all have monsters inside of us. The only thing that matters is how we control them.

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    1. But why should we WANT to control them when it's so much easier and more fun just to let them out to PLAY with the world?!

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  3. its not no choice.
    Just no gokd ones

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  4. David Banks is nothing to be ashamed of. He is passion, he is power, he is death and anger and energy! David is your greatest tool, monsieur, why would you ever be ashamed of that...?

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  5. Upset the clouds didn't pool overhead to an eruption of children screaming upon your announcement?

    Honestly, Sagy, I think the reason you're not getting the reaction you want is because of all the dead stares in the room.... because they're dead. So many of those who knew to fear you have since passed.

    Few remember the rape fulled nights of forcing people to each their their friends as you tore them apart piece by piece, one at a time, until there was nothing but one horrified survivor left to tell the tale.

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  6. So you're alive.

    I'm really not sure how to feel about that.

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    1. Holy fuck you're alive!

      ~

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  7. Please, like Snakeface wouldn't have gloated from Ankor Wat and back if he'd offed me.

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    1. It's good to know, though. I'm glad you're okay.

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    2. Cripes, kid, it's good to know you're okay, too! I'm doing just fine.

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    3. So I guess retired people can't read blogs now?

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    4. I've never known a retired runner to comment under a known Alias.

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    5. Cause I'm such a conventional guy ordinarily. But enough about me, really.

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